Bliss and Pride

My parents are really something.
Whoever my future wife will be is really going to really lucky to have in-laws like my parents.
For sure.
:)

Anger and Frustration

When your wide out is running a streak, you as the quarterback want to throw to the point furthest away from the defender. The ball must land where the hands of the wide out will be as he is running full speed towards the goal.

Except in Madden, you just throw it up and both the wide out and the corner sort of trot towards the area the ball will land... and then you get picked off! Because your artificial intelligence isn't intelligent enough to throw it about 10 yards deeper even though you've only thrown in for 20 yards.

Throwing 3 picks in a game because of stupid programming errors like that makes me so frustrated.

Geared

Found out that my car has 40 more horsepower than claimed.
That's awesome :)

Also got my snowboaring gear!
K2 Ingram + Burton Custom bindings + Ride boots.
I shall name it... Nariko!

Eyes on the Prize

I have a goals to accomplish and I will make sure nothing gets in the way of accomplishing said goals.

FOCUSED.

That's Who You Are

You looked down from above
Saw the sinful to blame
Had love in Your heart
And You sent, He came

You saw the paralytic
And his friends that carried him
Their faith compassion ignited
And freed he was from sin

That's who You are
Love and compassion
That's who You are
Forgiveness and grace

You knew the denials
That would tear You in two
But forgiveness was given
Because he was dear to you

You found me broken
Lost and unworthy
but because of Your grace
My soul is now free

No Shortcuts

I'm very disappointed in myself. I re-started P90x in hopes of doing it right this time. With the correct diet, with the correct attitude, with a hard working mentality. Except I've dogged it again. I've been eating late, and even skipped a couple of workouts.

Therefore, this time, there will be changes implemented immediately. Starting tomorrow morning. I've realized that the later it gets during the day, the harder it is for me to motivate myself to workout. Therefore, I've decided to start the day with P90x. Wake up super early and do that days work out. Get it over with. Then at night, if I have enough energy, I can either run or ride the bike. Theoretically, the workout would be more affective and it would be a less of a burden to make time for.

The question is, will I be able to wake up? And can I keep this up for 90 days? Guess we'll see tomorrow.

Prioritize

My daily schedule is too chaotic these days. I need to re-prioritize. Therefore:

1. God. (QT's, praise, church, etc)
2. Work. Paying bills.
3. P90x. Dieting. No eating past 7 (except special/unavoidable occasions)
4. Sleeping before 1. Waking up on time. No more 15 extra minutes of sleeping in after the alarm clock rings.
5. Everything else.

I hate how disorganized this list is, but it's 2am and I really don't care.
But I do need to consistently work out, consistently diet, not screw up work, and get my rest.
Gogogogo!

Amazing Grace

I woke up from a nightmare. Afraid, I sat up in my bed trying to rid myself of the frightening images of my nightmare. I looked around the room and suddenly memories of horror stories and 가위 stories began to flood my vulnerable mind. I sat there trembling at the fears of this world, and the weight of everything began to crush my soul.

Then out of the corner of my eye, I spotted the glow in the dark cross I had stuck onto my wall above my 4x6 family portrait. "God is Love". I closed my eyes and prayed, asked for God's protection upon my family, my friends, and for myself. Then peace swept over me and a calmness settled into my agitated soul. For nothing can separate us from His love, no demon, no angel, absolutely nothing. God's grace is amazing. Without Him, I would be reduced to nothing. I don't need anything but Him.

He is everything to me.

Gluttonous

It's been 60 days since I've started the P90x program. 60 days of hard work, 60 days of sweat and blood, 60 days of pain and suffering. Endeavoring with all my might.

And then came Thanksgiving week. I am very disappointed in myself. No self control. Too much food. Every time I take my shirt off in front of the mirror, I look away in utter disgust.

I think it's time to restart the program. I always knew that 90 days wouldn't get the me the results I've wanted. Not with my inconsistent dieting. So therefore, I will restart from day 1. And this time, I will do it right. No more excuses, no more meaningless breaks, no more doggin' it.

Time to put the hatchet in my gluttony and get to work.