Wonders and Things.

I worry too much. Sometimes to the point where I am overwhelmed.
I worry about the health, happiness and spiritual wellness of my parents.
I worry about the spiritual wellness of my friends, and I especially worry about my friends who aren't believers.
I worry about my church and its spiritual growth.
I worry about my finances, and my future security.
I worry about the stability of Subway and its hopeful constant growth in sales and net profits and such.
I worry about my love life, if and when I'm going to find "her".
I worry about my own health and future. If I should pursue an MBA, if I should go back to school as another major.

So many worries that cloud my thoughts.
But God is so good. Even on a day that's weather perfectly reflects the state of my mind, He speaks. In the gloomiest, wettest, most depressing day, God tells me that it shouldn't be my worry, for He takes my burdens and makes it His.

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

"He replied, "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."

I want to muster up enough faith to move greater things than mountains. I want enough faith to move the heart of God and to open up the graces of God in the lives of those who are suffering, those who are in trouble, those who are in pain, those who need to be broken, and those who need to know You. God, give me that faith! Show me your wonders!

By faith, four men were able to save and heal their paralytic friend. God, see my faith and save and heal my family and friends!

Joyous

Down at Your feet O Lord is the most high place
In Your presence Lord, I seek Your face
I seek Your face.

There is no higher calling
No greater honor
Than to bow and kneel before Your throne
I'm amazed at Your glory
Embraced by Your mercy
O God, I come to worship You!

Pokemon Silversoul

I have always been a huge Pokemon fan.
I've owned Pokemon Red, Silver, Ruby, Sapphire, Diamond, and Pearl and have beaten them all.
And now, Pokemon has decided to remake the Silver version which IMO was the best one.
Pokemon has declared March 14th as Silversoul's release date in the US.

Although I haven't played Pokemon for 4 years...
I absolutely CANNOT wait!
SO STOKED!

A New Decade

Mindbaffling.
10 years ago, I had graduated Junior High.
10 years ago, I dated Tiffany.
10 years ago, I had entered into High School.
10 years ago, I had thought that life was full of endless possibilities and that I could grow up to be whatever I wanted to be.

How perception changes in a decade.

10 years ago, I thought I'd be forever young. Forever athletic. Forever eating whatever I wanted to eat, doing whatever I wanted to do. Not having a care in the world.

And now 10 years later, I sit here munching on pears and low calorie turkey sandwiches. Avoiding triglycerides and transfats. Trying to eat as much high density lipids while cutting down on my low density lipids. Fatigued by exercise from the previous day. Worrying about the customer count and net sales for today, tomorrow, the month, the year. Worrying about marriage. Worrying about the spiritual lives of my church kids. Worrying about my parents. Worrying about my own health.

10 years seem so long, but looking back... it really doesn't seem that long at all. It seemed like yesterday when I graduated from Junior High.

But then I look back carefully and notice the grace and favor of my Lord. How the Lord has blessed us with Subway. How I wasn't able to apply to any UCs but was forced to go to SJSU only to have my mom get a minor heart attack. Her recovery was swift, our family was drawn closer together and to Him, and I realized that if I wasn't going to SJSU, I would have never been home to take her to the hospital that day. Grace amazing.

How I've struggled so much with my faith but He is constant and faithful. How He never lets me drown in my struggles but always pulls me out.

So despite the worries and concerns that lie ahead, I trust in Him to guide me. I know He is gracious, merciful and faithful. If I obey, and if I can muster up faith the size of a mustard seed, He has promised me that even mountains will move.

This decade, I want even more change. I want to train my body to be healthier, stronger, more fit. I want to train my mind to be unchangeable, focused on Him. I want my heart to be His heart. I want to eat healthier. I want to change my habits, sleeping earlier, waking up earlier. I want to train my voice to be even better. I want to better myself on the guitar, piano, drums, and electric. I want to enjoy God's word more and more. I want to hopefully find the "one", get married, have children. I want to serve, to love, to be knowledgable, to be wise. I want to serve my parents for they have given me so much in two and a half decades.

But most importantly, I want to love Him with all my heart, mind, strength, and soul. And I want to obey His commands, and do His will.

I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.

Bliss and Pride

My parents are really something.
Whoever my future wife will be is really going to really lucky to have in-laws like my parents.
For sure.
:)

Anger and Frustration

When your wide out is running a streak, you as the quarterback want to throw to the point furthest away from the defender. The ball must land where the hands of the wide out will be as he is running full speed towards the goal.

Except in Madden, you just throw it up and both the wide out and the corner sort of trot towards the area the ball will land... and then you get picked off! Because your artificial intelligence isn't intelligent enough to throw it about 10 yards deeper even though you've only thrown in for 20 yards.

Throwing 3 picks in a game because of stupid programming errors like that makes me so frustrated.

Geared

Found out that my car has 40 more horsepower than claimed.
That's awesome :)

Also got my snowboaring gear!
K2 Ingram + Burton Custom bindings + Ride boots.
I shall name it... Nariko!